: Have you thought about the military? It can be hard sometimes, but it's a
: steady paycheck. The Air Force allows me to provide for my family without
: worry of losing my job.

Tried, but couldn't do it. Bum knee, out of alignment jaw, screwed up nerve in the back of my neck, and frequent headaches prevent me from doing it. It's also the reason I don't play games much anymore. Doesn't help that my glasses are all screwed up.

: Also, I'm not a religious person and I don't know what your beliefs are but
: have thought about going to a church (or other house of worship) for
: help/guidance?

Already have and I'm in deed religious. It's insane how often I have to bite my tongue when playing online. Also a reason I don't play online much anymore.

: Just some thoughts. I know you're having a hard time, but don't give up. You
: have a family here, you're not alone.

Thank you, Buddy. You guys (and Aerus) have been more of a family to me then my own blood. And I can't express my gratitude enough.